Are you gonna live in this fat body FOREVER??!!!

*** ma fat n ugly photos


I hate being ma self sometimes…i cant eat wat i like, i cant make groovy move in ma dance anymore,i cant fit any cool tops or sexy jeans, and fuckin’ damn annoying is i’m A BIG SLOW BUNCH OF FATS THAT CANT MOVE FASTER!!!!

Actually this is not the best way to KUTUK yourself… Nooo…it’s just sometimes i felt soooo fat and i hate ma self….malulahhhhh…my lil bro’ dah kurus…but wat bout me??? i jeles tgk my bro dh kurus n ma dad dgn suke relanyer menghantar die masuk HD SHUFFLE@JB…Giler jeles!!!sebab die dah fit n die dah bley buat shuffle dengan sangat styloo…

Maybe now is ma turn…ma lil bro tu slalu ejek i GEMOK and dats y i’m a bit sad with ma self…time sekolah dlu pon mcm tu jugak…and the best part of all,i ade banyak nickname yang org2 jahat tu bagi:

BEG LEMAK, PEAR, MAK KPD 10 ANAK, blablabla…”

Hummm…oh god…pleaaassseeee give me more strenght everytime i see my reflection on the mirror….Even ma mom love to make fun of ma ‘fatness’…duhh…but ma dad didnt care at all.he told me as long as i healthy, he’s always happy…. hehehhehhehehhe….DO I LOOK HEALTHY??? NOOOO!!! heloo….’fatty’ is covering all over ma figure heeerrreeee…..

Huhh…sick n tired of being ‘puffy’ girl…and ma boo told me that i look much better if i would rather ” lose another 3 or 4 pounds” … is that a rude word for a boy comment her girl??? at first i thought it was R.U.D.E but then i can accept coz to me he’s acting as ma mirror…reflect back who i am…i accept his opinion as ma CHALLENGE…

I do want to lose until ma ideal weight which is 50kg…now i’m 75kg..dats mean i need to workout n lose 25 kg by this years (if i can…)…by the end of this year ma ex highschool will arrange a reunion dinner at Hilton Hotel JB with GLAMOROUS NITE theme…if i berjaya fit in ma new dinner dress, i’ll go..if not, strictly I’M NOT GOING THERE N HEARING THOSE STUPID HUMAN TEASING ME ALL OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!! GOD!!! REALLY A NITEMARE!!!

Now, i’m arranging back ma routine to be more healthy, more jog, more spending time in gym and less eating food that ma body really dont need…i’m just hoping that i can lose at least 1 or 2 pound this month and keep on going until they stop calling me GEMOK!!

P/S: i’ll try to always update my losing weight progress in ma blog n love if u guys could help me to share ya’ll ‘fatty @ chubby’ experience or some advices so that i can get ma confident back on track again…